i can smell your drawing, its not a bad thing but all i smell now is iron

thanks

that you for your kind words

but, i feel lucky, i feel lucky thats its one of my biggest fears, because compared to other people i've hit the lottery, having a life that is worth living for, i just dont feel as connected to my own self

and thats just one of the things i think from time to time, and im such a hypocrite I've been terrified of death for as long as i can remember and i dont know what they are but ive had these panics attacks i think, but they just last for seconds and i feel like throwing up air, when i was around 5 i remember crying to someone about they are all going to die including me and i cant do anything about