it was the anxiety of gay club and the friends not talking to me and the friends drifting and the not getting to go to the musical after really trying so hard to fix things and the not getting to be with anyone who loves me and the people who said they love me even platonically leaving of their own free will or not and the parents and the just giving up on school and the stress and the not ever crying so my emotions just get more and more dramatic so I vent to make up for the not crying and then feel guilty about venting and I just want to quit trying so someone will finally see just how much trouble I'm having

njbgrlgbj im just whining

yeah