I’m not going to kill myself, not even close to that point. I just feel awful. My parents want be to be smarter, stronger, selfless, and responsible but I’m just a kid! I’m not even a teen yet! And now -Russia-‘s mom is telling me I’m not a good enough friend. I try my best to be the best at everything but it’s not working. My family makes me feel horrible if I get any grade worse than an A. My dad keeps trying to make me join the library staff, and the local band ( the youngest person in it is over 20 ), and guilt tripping me by saying it will help me get into college or that one of my idols would do it. Idk what I’m gonna do 😰