So recently I've been given personal devices... but my guardian. Is so obsessed with taking it away like it's going to help me... not being petty but I'm depressed about shit.. I feel like I abondonded some people when I didn't want to leave but my dumbads family ****s it up

*dumbass

If you don't care .. honestly I'm pretty tense about the stuff I believe in.. recently I figured I am non religious and i don't believe in God, for what I know my guardians are very.. very religous.. it annoys me so much

So when I try to hang out with regular people I cant... do .. really anything.. these people scare me and honestly I feel kinda controlled... I've been thinking I might move in with my grandma in Iowa

I usually just sleep... with nothing to do.. and these people say stupid stuff and basically work me to the fact .. that I don't care anymore

Reason.. I'm very mute forwards them they make me feel angry... idk if it's additive but I'm basically grounded for existing... I actually had to sneak to get my phone just to get on here... I feel lonely to the fact I would honestly do anything