I ate sand once and started crying because I thought it was moldy and I kept rinsing out my mouth I thought I was gonna die that was traumatic

I don't have many child tramatizing stories. I've been a huge introvert inside all of my life (but i'm also a leo and become friends with anyone. Race, gender, sexuality, age, doesn't matter. If we want to be friends i will be friends with you and not judge you at all) and don't make many friends so i was either inside my house safe and sound or at Chik Fil A eating. I don't have many traumatizing stories but i must have had something wrong with me from the get go cause i used to draw super creepy drawings. not like satanic i was never possed and have never been possed but one drawing from when i was five was a family cooking marshmellows while the daughter got cut up with a chainsaw in the back ground by a guy in a mask. I never watched scary movies and didnt even have access to youtube until last year so i have no idea where it even came from. When i found it it gave me anxiety and i sat in the corner of my room questioning what was wrong with me as a child and if i have ever been actually okay.

I was still considered female when I was a smol child so I used to try to fit in and be a girl by asking for girly toys n shit but I never ended up liking that shit. I would really try but eventually I just gave up and accepted that I wasn't like other girls. Then years later I found out I wasn't a girl 00f