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Ethan-Bean 
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31.07.2019
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BreatheChild01
31.07.2019 22:22
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Oml my cat was in here and I never knew until I have seen him walk out like a queen.
You think I don't smile because i want to look cool. That isnt the thing that isnt my style that isnt the type of person i am.
Here's the person I am.
When Im away from electronics or in school, Im sad overthinking quiet and not happy especially when i take pictures When someone tells me a flaw i fix it by covering it up so no one can notice.
Now let's get into the real deal. Im gonna put this in a rhyme so you can understand me better.
I suffer from depression and anxiety I don't smile when im all alone, I don't smile when im not the one picking up my phone i Don't like when people point out all the things on me that are wrong.
I don't take shit from randoms even though I know im the only random I don't feel normal but I feel like im just a bad written fandom. I keep my head held low so no one notices I draw smile on my face so it seems like in my heart im not as cold.
when people criticize me I don't like to listen to them so I shut them out like the person im coming out to be. I don't like to talk to people so I turn my head away trying to get rid of the conversation and let it obliterate.
The only thing holding up my head is my girlfriend and my imaginary friends.
Want to know about me more? Alright then sit down. When Im getting bullied in school I just use it as a way to climb higher than you. I don't like to but feel like I have to. I try to keep it in my head like the figures I see in my room. telling myself it's a dream even though it's something most of us suffer through regardless if it's being seen.
You take this as if it's a joke but behind the screen the only thing im thinking in my head is how the world must be a hoax. And in some ways I kinda want it to be but this is why my parents built me. I was built for the challenges I come across But I don't doing them maybe because im scared,lazy, or it's just hard.
So here's a little bit more about me. I was elected for a class Representative but I feel like that's only because the sympathy in my teacher for me knew the figures in my head are just creative. They're creative with violence, blood tears that's what makes them defiant.
I don't need to see what you have to say because it will always affect me in some way. im sorry i guess im just a *****y person but i guess thats how you have to live in this type of world when we're dealing with the anxiety.
Dude, I actually think you are pretty cool and love your art.
Not smiling is fine like you don't have to be the cheeriest person. But just try and stay a little positive and I am not saying that as something offensive. You just gotta try and get out there and find more stuff that you can do! Maybe somedays are dumb and boring but that's because you haven't found out what you wanna do yet! :D
Like how I was talking to my cat and I looked at him and realized he has eyelashes. The world has awesome facts that are waiting to be found! Like how your cat can have eyelashes!
Again, I'm not meaning this in an offensive criticizing way, just trying to help you cheer up and not feel so down about your self.