So there was a girl in my class last year, I'm gonna gall her jimmy. She was really talented and smart and good at drawing and sports. She was social and approachable and not insane. I wanted to be like her so hard and failed every time. She began to notice how depressed I was and asked me about I said I was fine bu I lied. I eventually told her whats wrong and I feel awkward around her. She never talks to me or anything any more and I'm not sure if thats a good thing. I have really low self esteem because of her and whenever she compliments me or says that I have some worth I know shes lying. I just don't know.