Glad I didn't die yesterday. Last night at the hospital I dreamt of you, I dreamt of you coming back and you were crying so k held you tightly to my chest and o loved the feeling of that and I just want to feel that again. Doctors have rub 4 tests in total on my body and are coming with results in 2 days. I'm scared for them but I'm mostly scared of losing you completely.. And that's killing me.

Your hair is the sunshine when the light reflects it, it's beautiful rays making me feel like the luckiest guy and the happiest guy standing on planet earth