my dog bit my non-existent dick off now im sad

I hate everything and everyone but I don’t wanna show it and everything sucks and nothing will get better and I can’t get help and everyone thinks I’m faking it just because I have to fake everything I do and I don’t have any friends or anyone to trust or talk to so I’m just forced to keep it to myself and I’m always hurt physically and emotionally because of my family and I don’t know what to do about it and I wanna die but everyone thinks I’m lying for attention