For a long time I thought my judgement would always be severely impacted by this and I wouldn't be able to engage in sexual activities healthily without being taken advantage of I'm refreshed knowing I have a chance at a healthier future

I don't want to be stuck in a constant loop of a coping mechanism that leads me into dangerous situations. The most alarming hypersexual episode I've ever had was a couple months ago I think? I got groomed and send nudes to a pedophile, then once I very quickly slipped out of that hypersexual episode i deleted the nudes and blocked the dude I don't know if he still has them, but I dont really care as long as he isn't doing it to other people. He probably is though, I wish I didn't block him so I could've found out more about him and report him to the police. I'm only 14 as of current, and knowing it was already this bad while I'm alone kinda alarms me how bad it could get when I actually go out and be social & have a social life It'd be even worse when I'm an adult That's why I'm taking it into my responsibility to help myself before I dig my own grave, ykwim?

I don't want to dig my own grave I don't wanna make things worse for myself Letting others take advantage of my vulnerability will not fix my problems, it may help me cope with what happened to me but it definitely won't fix what I'm trying to fix. It unfortunately happens to be that this is a problem I have to fix on my own, which is incredibly difficult despite me having to fix my own issues my entire life. But I personally believe I can, with enough effort and dedication I can morph myself into the person I could've been if it werent for what happened.

Instead of digging myself a grave, I will be digging myself a better future. I'm thankful for those who've been there for me to support me and listen to me when I needed someone to hear me cry. L haters you can suck my butthole 👎👎👎👎