ADHD paralysis
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NicolE-[OP]
25.03.2023 23:36
LinkI said I would clean at 3
NicolE-[OP]
25.03.2023 23:36
LinkLISTEN
NicolE-[OP]
25.03.2023 23:37
LinkOKAY WHOEVER THINKS IM JUST SAYING I HAVE ADHD BECAUSE I WANNA BE DIFFERENT OR SOMETHING
I HAVE HAD EVERY. SYMPTOM FOR YEARS
YEARS BEFORE I EVEN KNEW WHAT IT WAS
NicolE-[OP]
25.03.2023 23:38
LinkAND I BELIEVE IT INFRINGES ON MY LIFE IF I COULD I WOULDVE ALREADY GOTTEN A HUNDRED DIAGNOSIS ALL THE TREATMENTS FOR IT I DONT SAY THIS AS IF ADHD IS SUPER FUN AND SILLY BILLY BEAN THING TO HAVE
NicolE-[OP]
25.03.2023 23:40
LinkAnd it’s not like oh I have a special interest omg I got the ‘tism I know everything about my special subject I’m super smart I’m super funny bc of my adhd
Like no
I wish I was so passionate in something I could speak for hours I’m practically the opposite
NicolE-[OP]
25.03.2023 23:43
LinkI have, and I’m not joking, at LEAST 25 completely different subjects going on in my mind at ALL TIMES it’s difficult to focus to be motivated and I think so wildly so Willy nilly I started thinking there were different people in my head with different voices and opinions (not in the DID way more as in a loose identity way)
NicolE-[OP]
25.03.2023 23:45
LinkI think people just throw around autisim and adhd so much at this point it’s just a certain list of traits or actions instead of the very real brain differences these people go through their whole lives
NicolE-[OP]
25.03.2023 23:45
LinkIf I say oh I think I have autisim I THINK I GOT AUTISIM NOT IM SILLY AND HAVE SOME TRAITS
NicolE-[OP]
25.03.2023 23:49
LinkI fully believe I have adhd, and if not oh well
But so many things I do have been correlated to adhd (or autisim) like obsessive compulsive thoughts, tics, rejection anxiety, social anxiety, issues with social cues or situations, sensitivity not in topics but sensory, restlessness all of that stuff
Even anger issues and sensory seeking
NicolE-[OP]
25.03.2023 23:52
LinkLike I don’t cuss instead I use kind of goofy ways of saying things (this actually goes deeper than you’d think) I slur my words together because my mind is too fast for my tongue i procrastinate when I hate it
I have to constantly move I daydream
Like you really think I’d just make all this up to buy expensive medicine and get an expensive diagnosis
NicolE-[OP]
25.03.2023 23:53
LinkYou think I WANT TO MAKE RANDOM UNCONTROLLABLE BIRD NOISES BRUH THATS EMBARRASSING BUT I DUNNO I CANT HELP IT
NicolE-[OP]
25.03.2023 23:54
LinkCRUD NOW IGS 5 54
NicolE-[OP]
25.03.2023 23:56
LinkI’m not miserable these traits don’t ruin my day I actually can do school work pretty well and I’m happy that sensory issues don’t result in meltdowns for me but it’s more like I’m trapped in my mind
The second anyone enters my room I get aggressive
I don’t care about if you steal my food and right now I don’t care abt people leaving dishes because it’s not really MY house
A more time accurate example would be like, let’s say you sleep on the couch instead of me and I didn’t know, or you touch my iPad