(continue) couldnt handle it. i did meet a friend, but even though they are still nice i hold a fake smile for every one. yester day i missed the bus. the first time in my life i missed the buss and my dad acted like i did it alot. he yelled at me (also i cant handle crying infrount of people lol. probably because i was called cry baby to much i didn´t want to risk it), i tryed to shrug it off but he has never yelled at me like that. it kinda scared me. but today once i came home i went to my brothers room and did my homework as my brother and sister were cleaning. my brothers tv was on and i easily got destracted. then my dad noticed and screamed at me. takeing my phone away and thretening to smack me. as much as i hated being spancked i hated being slaped more. even though my dad never perpusely slaped me i could imagin how it would feel to have been slaped by one who has spancked me before really hard. so i cryed. my mom noticed and once my brother and dad went to base ball we went to the libary to get it

(sorry he turned off my wifi for the night) off my mind. when i came home my dad was there my mom wanted to talk to him outside. and i could have swore. it might have been the music. but they were fighting.