I DIDNT EVEN WWAN T TO GO TO THESE THINGS BECAUSE THEY MAKE ME FEEL INFERIOR THE ONLY REASON I SAID YES TO GOING IS SO MY DAD WOULDNT BE UPSET WITH ME I KNOW HE WOULD BELITTLE ME FOR NOT GOING

SO NOW I NEED FANCY CLOTHES AND MY MOM MADE ME TYR ON DRESSESE AND FANCY TOPS ANDONE OF THEM WS A S UT BUT IT WAS FEMUNINW CUT MY MOM SAID THATS JUST T GHEE WAY WOMEN WEAR SUITS BUT I SAID IT WAS STUPID WHY DID EVERYTHING ON EVERH TNGM I TRIED ON ACCENTUATE THE THINGS I HATE ABOUT MY BIDY THE MKOSGt

I WANT TO CUT MYSELF AGAIN BECAUSE OF HER AND SHE SAID THAT "WHATEVER IT IS BOTHERS YOU ABOUT THIS PLEASE TELL ME OR DAD OR UR THERAPIST WE WONT BE MAD" YESY OU WILL IM TRANS IM TRANS YOU HATET HEM YOU HATETUS WE ARE DISGUSTING SIJNERS IN YOUR EYES I CAN T TRUST YOY WITH THIS YOULL RIDICULE ME AND MAKE ME EVEN MRE OF AN OUTCAst THAN I AM ALREATDy