Ok- so last night was a rough night. My mom was being a ***** like always and I almost died- SO ANYWAYS I tried to take my chromebook to my room bc mom said I could have free time if I got my work done and I DID I got that shit done but yet I couldnt do anything. I was still grounded- so then I went to my room and I had a literal breakdown bc of my mom then I walked out my room and to the kitchen bc I thought I was ready and I started crying so I went back to my room and had ANOTHER breakdown. SO then I go to my bathroom cause at that point my eyes were hella red so I cover them up and put makeup on. Then that stupid ass ***** comes over and says its bedtime. I refused to talk to her until she says sorry. LITERALLY SORRY I mean damn it isnt asking much but here I am. Anyway I tried to sleep and I fell asleep for like 30 minutes ;-; literally 30 minutes and those 30 minutes were enough time for me to have a horrible nightmare to the point I had a 3rd breakdown- then I felt really sick so I ran to my bathroom-

and from there I threw up ;-; and I went to my sister like hey I had a bad dream in the middle of a breakdown and I was hella stuffy and I had tears all down my face so what she did was yell at me to get out and tried to kick me- what a lovely person. I went back to my bathroom and debated what to do then I went to my mom lIkE ***** WaKe Up- I got sick- take my germs. I said that to her -<- she dismissed me and told me to go back to my bed. That stupid hoe didnt do shit for me. Again im not talking to her from now on UMU

3 breakdowns in one night- thats a record. I cried so much I literally soaked my jacket, 2 blankets, and my pillow. ;-; I dont cry much anymore bc like I cant really feel anything anymore but damn. Imma just say when I had those breakdowns I felt everything and nothing at the same time. I felt something but at the same time it felt hella empty and ngl that really scares me. I mean I honestly dont feel shit rn. To my family I dont feel anything- its just an empty feeling and with my friends honestly depends who they are and their mood. Sometimes im happy other times im sad- mad- and other times a similar empty feeling. T^T

aLsO- I sprained my wrist XD ik ik im so stupid. Idk how I did it but I did so- U^U lucky me. It hurts really bad but is ok- that also leads into a story XD omg so I got up a while ago and went to my mom like hey my wrist, head, leg, and stomach hurt. Im in pain a lot so -<- anyway she literally threw me out of her room ;-; like- she shoved me and pushed me and slammed the door in my face when I told her I felt bad. Typical ngl TwT anyway later when we were at grandmas I said hey mom my wrist still hurts -m- and so she looked at it and she said: oH iTs SwOlLeN- me over here like ***** WHAT- you threw me out ya goddamn room and now I have a sprained wrist. Ngl its prolly from all the times im shoved down and I just fell wrong. Idk anymore-