But when I look in the mirror I see a monster that is me. Maybe the other monsters are trying to stop me from hurting their brothers and sisters. Maybe Im the scary one maybe Im the ****ed up one.

Maybe that is why my dad keeps telling that my mind will get me killed one day. Not because of suicide or a car crash. No because one day I will get shot for expressing my opinions and my feelings. Look mom look at your daughter who turned on you because I couldn't keep my mouth shut because it was the world that changed my name.

My name is rare it means princess...but I don´t feel like a princess I feel like a monster ready to pounce. No wonder everyday when I hold a knife my sisters are scared of me. I don´t want to hurt them. I just want to hurt me. I cause so much pain in their hearts and sorry wont cut it. Oh God please for give my sins. I should have never ran away I should have never made my mom cry. I was her first born. I loved her. I felt so bad and I thought what have I done.

I wish I never said a thing. I wish I kept my mouth shut. The first time I talked saw first time I was gonna regret saying thing.