Im trying to stay sane. But I just had a big fight with my girlfriend and she called me evil. Everyone thinks that out people are free and feel amazing. But I feel like I have to live other people's shadow. I hate comparison and I always will. Ive never been jealous of people that are so happy but ive pinned myself away from positivity. I feel as if people just don't care, and say nice things to hide their sadnesss. I don't want people to feel what I feel. I don't want people to paint me as an angel because im not.