i dont want to be angry but sometimes i just cant handle being your support system im not calm and i dont want to be calm anymore youve got everything you need tog et better and youre not getting any better and i know its not that simple but i dont know how i can get you to see the truth i dont know how i saw it in the first place and you treat me like im fakingn it because society has convinced us the recovery isnt possible but it is its so real and its so hard but the reward is a life not weighed down by trauma and believe me ive been through it ive woken up in a hospital room before im not allowed near weapons or knives ive met murderers ive been restrained by the people i love th emost ive had to be carted into hospital after hospital strapped down to a stretcher because what if i hurt someone and you still try to tell me that i dont get it that i havent experienced it that im just pretending you mother****ers dont understand what its like sometimes, being on my side of the screen and watching my closest