ok but
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StormTheCat 
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21.04.2020
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StormTheCat[OP]
21.04.2020 22:06
Linklike
a lot of you
seem so happy all the time
how
i fake happiness
all day
every day
because of my parents
im overflowing lol
and i am used to it
but
its hard to keep *everything* in
because theres a lot
and just-
not caring?
but also secretly caring?
damn-
i'm complicated
i mean thats a way
my mom would slap me if i was cold to her though ;(
and eh
ah-
well also faking? faking smiles and happiness? that's what i do infront of my family,
oh, also act as if you're okay with everything
hmm i try to do that in front of my family as much as possible
i should try that. if people piss me off i normally get angry but i mean
if i dont care
they will be angry
and
hah :,)
even tho sometimes i go into a dark place if they say something that reminds me of it so it may be a little hard
oh
i wanna change schools so that i'd get a second chance, like, instead of being a people-pleaser, i could be the one that's secretive and is cold to everyone except a bit teachers
oh
thats what i was like
i would sit there and give people dirty looks and do little things to scare them
like once i changed my hand sanitizer in the little thing to a little thing of lotion and it freaked out this one kid so i kept doing it lmao
i cry and talk to myself a lot
i also pretend i’m talking to someone else but i’m talking to my mirror
i dont know why
but i dont cry often at all
like its rare that i actually cry
i use the mirror to fake expressions (i pretty good at it too-) and to make sure it doesn’t look like i’ve been crying
i’ve been crying a lot lately, probably because I can’t talk to my friends as much, they used to help me cope
you guys are my only friends so
:,)) haha i get to talk to my friends all the time
my friends ignore me because i’m annoying and needy it’s not fun
and yay :D
oh yeah and mom i moved out i have like 15 kids now out of nowhere
oh
thats how i think i lost all my friends
or just being scared of trusting them lol
oh
oh no
h a h
y'know what's fun
if someone's yelling at you talk calmly to them, their reactions will be awesome ( i almost got disowned for doing this once lmao and then i was called a demon child, sellout, and unloyal ***** :D )
HAHA THAT SOUNDS AWESOME
i want my parents to disown me
MOOOM come YELL AT MEEE
i did it to my grandma (probably not the best decision bc she's literally so unstable but..) and she was furious at first but she ended up being the one crying for once
like how dare i not be terrified of a fat tiny old lady who kinda hates me
she was just screeching at me about how condescending i was (oh gee sorry not sorry i really dont care mate) and i was just like yeah? okay? i know? stop telling me i'm a bad person, i know that??? you've said it like fifteen times, you can stop now. jesus do you ever shut up??? so that was very fun.
LMFAO
if i told anyone to shut up i would most definitely get slapped lol
oh i didnt say anything i was just kind of saying it with my eyes if that makes sense lmao
oh
heh
i always give my mom those eyes that say "you are literally the most STUPID person i have EVER MET'' and she knows :,)
somehow she doesnt yell at me for that though
I usually just try to stay happy most of the time.. Instead of just finding a reason to feel down, I find a reason to be happy :D
i-
thats a good idea
your positive energy has given me the energy to go downstairs and take my medicine lmao
i feel like you're rolling your eyes at me are you rolling your eyes at me mom
idontknow ;(
but
my parents cant be mad at me for ever rolling my eyes at them
yeah i have trouble with that, my natural teenager instincts often overpower my better judgement
my teenager hormones just make my mood swings about as stable as the lamp shade on my lamp
Whoa how did my comment become a chain lol
Not to interrupt-
But y’all are talking about teenage stuff while I’m sittin here at age 10
I mean-
Idek if I’m mature or not
I’m just around my cousin (who’s like a teen) too much ig lol
I dont know
Im trying to find that myself. Im not emotional, Ig. But stuff still hurts me? Idek, Im not really any help
awh :(
nah its fine. maybe the other comments might help you a little too??
dammit
i cant go take my medicine
mom went upstairs to get something (im also upstairs) and im crying lmao
i still dont know why i cry or have panic attacks when i hear my family
maybe because of some past emotional trauma? it could trigger that reaction maybe???