Ughhhh,,, I want to barf so bad rn... Half of my head hurts...

It's not like anyone cares about me Ahahhahahahahahaaa.... I do get that I'm rlly annoying.. but i want to be happy too.. I don't want to suffer by smiling all the time.. but it's what I have to do... My parents will end me if I stop playing along.. it's what I have to do.. I want to run away,,, from home and find a new place to live but I can't do that cause of security... **** **** **** ****,,, I wanna die so badly rn

I want help,,, I need help... I want to get therapy but they're also gonna say I'LL BE FINE... I'm not fine... I m not fine... I'm fine.. I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine,, don't worry... This will all end soon

BUT THATS WHAT THEY SAY WHEN IM SUFFERING!! I DUNNO HOW TO CONTROL MYSELF!! I HAVE DEMONS THAT LURK AROUND ME, IN THE CORNER OF MY ROOM AND EVERYWHERE! and they're all hoping I go to hell.... And I... Hope I go to hell cause hell.. is better than this sick planet..

I want scream irl like this too... But my parents will think I'm mentally crazy and then they'll scream at me and send me to some mental hospital or something...

I know that's all you can do and thanks anyways...

It's ok...

Hi..

It's 21:19.. and I don't feel like sleeping

Ig..

Thx,, your nice to me... I don't deserve that

*hugs* xjsmmd I don't feel like eating...