small vent (not small)
11 comments
jumpscare[OP]
06.05.2024 23:26
LinkI hate myself so much I want to kill myself, I genuinely wanna die, I wanna slit my throat sometimes, I dont feel okay anymore, I feel so stupid and dumb, I don't feel pretty I feel like I'm just an ugly pig, I feel fat even though I'm a god damned stick, I'm gonna force myself o throw up so much this afternoon because i ****ing hate myself that much and I think and feel like I will die from the starvation that i do to myself, i hate everthing about me, i hate my stupid luttle face i hate myself, i hate my weight, i hate my hair, i have my skin, i hate my eyeys, i hate my teeth, i hate my lips i feel so ****ing stupid at times, my parennts ****ing hate me, they will never love me, i have failed them as their own blood and child, my mum abuses my dad doesnt give a **** about me, the girls in class make me feel so ****ing uuseless as well i feel ike a waste of space same with the boys ig, i just hope i die, i dont deserve to live or anything, i feel like my world is crumbling apart, i wanna cry so badly, i jus
jumpscare[OP]
06.05.2024 23:27
Linki wanna cry so badly, i just wanna be happy for once in my god damned life, but no ill never ****ing get that because i cant even have a nice school life, or a nice family life because no one ****ing truly likes me and i hate my life and myself so much, i dont deserve shit at all i ****ing hate everything my parents have never loved me theve always been abusives ****s towards me all my life, ive been bullied for who knows how long and i didnt even notice in primary since i was a ****ing stupid ass kid, i didnt even know i had family issues until last year, i didnt even know my mum was abusing me or guilt tripping me, i feel so dumb for that i feel so ****ing naive, i feels so so so so ****ing maniplulated =,
jumpscare[OP]
06.05.2024 23:27
Linkand i cant get anyone to help me, becaus eim too scared to open up to anyone at all about my problems, i feel so hungry as well, i havent eaten since recess and all ive had is oreos and a few bites from a cake, but after that, i fell so ****ing fat, i ****ing hate bloating, i feel so ugly, why did i want a stomach before? I look so ****ing ugly, I'm gonna slit my ****ing wrists later, first with a safety pin and then the scissors so I can get the burn of the cuts, I hate everything, I hate my family, my mum, dad, grandma, grandpa, my whole family, I hate my looks, my crooked teeth, my dark dumb eyes, my dry ass thin lips, my bloating ass body, I hate school the work overload, and the people, my mum also overworks the shit outta me like I have no emotions and my whole life just works and work and work, I can't get a break, I can't get a break, I can't get a ****ing break, I want to rest, I want to rest for one day in my life, I just wanna feel calm instead of worked all the time. But if I don't do work, then
jumpscare[OP]
06.05.2024 23:27
Link I'm a failure, I don't drive life then I am just a worker I don't get a break at all, i wanna die, I just have to kill myself, and it's all over, and I can finally have a rest, and I can finally die, but im to scared to kill myself, but i wanna die, so the day i can have the moment i can lodge those scissors into my throat i will finally be free from life, but i will never when the time comes when i die, the day i can finally end it all, i just wanna be happy just once, just one more time again.
jumpscare[OP]
06.05.2024 23:28
LinkI hate everyone, i wanna be happy just for once, i wanna have a good life, i just wanna be happy, i feel so ****ing empty, i feel like my heart is gonna ****ing burst, but i wanna kill myself because all of these ****ers, i wanna be okay. Its not getting better. I wanna be left alone. What did i do to you exactly? I never knew you until the year started, why did i get things thrown at me for no reason at all? Why did you throw it? Why did you record me cry? Why do you make me feel like killing myself? What did i do to you what have i done to deserve this at all? What have i ever done for the racist comments? Why do you call me bestie when you know so very much that i dont like you at all? How do you even call me your friend when you cant even stop them from hurting me? Can i just mind my own business without having to have people make me cry? Why do you make me cry? Why do i have to be in the rumours? What have i done. Is it all my fault? Am i the reason you do this? Did i make you feel like what you do to me
jumpscare[OP]
06.05.2024 23:28
LinkDid i make you feel like what you do to me know? Can you forgive me? Can i forgive you? Did i hurt you? Did i do this or did you? Is it all my fault? Am i the reason for the things you do? Am i the reason for all the rumours? Did i do it? If i did, im sorry, i didnt know.
jumpscare[OP]
06.05.2024 23:28
Linkanyways
jumpscare[OP]
06.05.2024 23:28
Link**** i forgot to mark as 18+ pisss
jumpscare[OP]
06.05.2024 23:29
Linksoruy
jumpscare[OP]
06.05.2024 23:30
Linkjumpscare[OP]
06.05.2024 23:30
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