yes I'm back from my almost a year on my new account, why? Because I'm paranoid. I am so paranoid. I cannot get a bit of rest and this message is my last hope. I've spent an entire year wishing, hoping you'd finally go away. But I can't rest without thinking about you. I resent the name coffee I hate even hearing it so I pray that you are listening. I want to combust because it it you're driving me insane. I can't stand you,and every little time every snip I can't help but worry about it. It's hurting me so much and i don't understand why you're so ****ing obsessed.

why me? Whys it got to be us? What made us so special. It eats me up inside, because you got so much compared to me, you could have so much, and yet every time I think about it what you did to me, it makes me want to beat my brains out. would that be enough for you? Sometimes I just wish I was dead because it would make me feel safer. I miss when we first met for the whole reason that you didn't know me. I was manipulated and now all I am is full of fear. And I won't take it anymore. I've made two posts today because I am so delusional at this point i cry daily about it. I don't want to be like this anymore. You don't deserve the attention and yet you get it all you basically have it and everything and yet I could list everything you did that was traumatizing to me or others i want to scream, maybe rip my guts out. What would make you happy now? How do I f ucking make you satisfied? You're a big fat ass liar. I hate liars and I hate you.

This is at someone here I think but I can't be sure idk and I don't care.