I decided to take an 'Are you depressed?' test. I already knew i was depressed...but i didn't think to a greater level... I got 8/10 Then i took another test, the 'are you suicidal?' test, I started crying in the middle of it, realizing that i did most of the things that suicidal people do. The test said i might be crying out for help but not knowing how to. I watched a video called 'Hints someone might be suicidal' and started crying even more because i had done almost all of those things. Then i took a mental health test, just to see if i honestly need to contact someone. It said I'm not fully stable, not to the point of wanting to hurt someone, I don't even want to hurt myself, but that something might be off affecting my mental state. It said i was crazy, somewhat insane. I'm scared. I can't contact anyone, I can't kill myself, i just can't. I can't. I'm honestly scared.