I'm feeling very down today.. I tried talking to my parents, but got ignored as usual.. I tried to kill myself three times and failed.. I cut myself, yes I do. I'll show it too if you want, I'm not joking.. I feel like an attention seeking *****, I wanna ****ing die but can't because I'm scared. I'm scared of living, I'm scared of dying. But I wanna die, but I don't want to. I have so many people here that care about me and yet I feel like no one cares about me.. though I know some of you do and some of you don't, idk.. I just can't, I'm crying badly right now. My eyes hurt, my arms hurt, my heart hurts, I can't do this.. I wanna stay, but i feel like going away.. I just, idk. I can't breathe.. I'm being covered by so many emotions I can't express all of them at once, I have a breakdown. My parents don't notice and I look up to them. Hell their the ones who adopted me. Why cant they take care of me?? Why cant they give me a hug and tell me that they love me? Why am I such a disgrace? I'm sorry, I can't type a

Anymore, im choking in my own tears..

Hell no

**** no, i have social anxiety. Really bad social anxiety