okay, explanation time some friend at school, i may like them but i may not, i can't tell, and it's slowly draining my sanity, almost to a point i hate talking to them, because i just can't tell! i want to call myself aromantic, but i can't unless i'm sure, i'm just not..! okay i have big anxiet rn ima go blare random crap from my playlist for a bit

and if anyone doesn't know what a squish is just look it up

btw it's a school friend who doesn't use this site, i'll just clear that up, so..

https://postimg.cc/JssHQ2p9/0d48cb54 lol look what i found(eth)

yeah i put this in the wrong thread CARROT LOOK I'M ToO LAZy To MovE It

ikr

yep i'm having fun rn

i know, ok i'm switching to my laptop, i'm on the computer and i really would rather not have my mom come out here rn

back anyway, is it weird i wanna work this into Aro's story? i won't, to me, Aro's always gonna be the truly aromantic one, i sort of did with PJ, but in a weird "trying to convince myself it's a bad thing" way, but it's going away, maybe it helped, probably not it could be bc i don't talk to them often, and i'm just happy to, i'm clearly not good with emotions, so this stuff scares the crap out of me but something's just telling me it isn't a crush i hope it's right (ok this sounds like a wattpad story now, sry)

(inhale) idk? like.... yes, but actually no, i think it's just i'm paranoid and i think of stuff that's not even real happening, so it's hard to really tell

i've stared deep into the abyss that is my soul, and i think i don't, i think it's just the pressure of "people are starting to date, F*CK!" but i need to take the pressure and put it in the back of a dark closet >:3

(staring at an urban dictionary page) (f*cking audible relief) yepissasquish, but idk, i am friends with her, maybe when summer comes along i can take that as time away from her- oh yeah they're female btw, she is lesbian so that's honestly made it worse, but it's not, so, yep anyway apparently you just push it down deep, squish the squish :>

indeed