I'm sorry!
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A-Loser[OP]
03.05.2019 02:40
LinkI'm sorry to my friends, family and even to the people I don't know.
Life is hard and I can't deal with it. I'm not at strong as I looks or act. I'm fake. I can't bother looking at a mirror cause it breaks every time. You look at my photos and say "why aren't you in these?" CAUSE I CANT LOOK AT MYSELF! People say "It's ok calm down" or "Don't worry I feel your pain" YOU DONT FEEL THE PAIN IM GOING IN! I'm scared of everything..living...dying...seeing myself...talking...crying..but I can't stop crying...I can't stop living unless I make myself die but I'm to scared to die too..everyday I look in a mirrior cause I have to use the restroom but I'm scared but I can't help it. My family and friends don't notice the pain in me cause they don't know me. I act like their friend to stand up or the Wonderful child but I'm to scared to stand up..I'm not a wonderful,perfect, child. I can't hurt myself cause I'm scared to see you cry...it's hard to breathe everyday but I don't dare say anything cause I'm worried when y
A-Loser[OP]
03.05.2019 02:44
LinkYou get worried...some days I can't get out of bed cause a monster shoves me back into bed and forces me to stay down but I somehow fight it and I get it and go the hell...school...I want to cry everyday there but is scared to get rumors or called names cause I know I don't get bullied but everything on my body already bullies me and IM SCARED! I've cried at the littlest things and callyself a baby or a crybaby or a weakling when I don't want to! I want to be happy I want to smile cause I'm happy but I can't cause a monster is making me doubt myself and I can't fight that monster away anymore. Life is going hard on me and school is putting so much pressure on me and I just can't handle it. I want to kill myself but is to scared because I'm a peice of shit laying down in a bed talking to no one cause no one will care enough for me to live but I still care somehow and need to live but wants to die...I don't appreciate my gender and want to change but can't...and it killing me...
A-Loser[OP]
03.05.2019 02:47
LinkIM SCARED SO MUCH THAT I SHAKE DURING CLASS AND MY FRIEND GETS MAD AT ME FOR IT. I can't get mad at her though...I love her..I want her to stay with me but she can't cause I'm going to lash out at her make make her cry...then..things won't do good and I will be erased from this world and no one will notice cause IM A MISTAKE! God accidentally made me and can't get rid on me cause I'm like a virus to this Earth..I can't blame the world though..I can't only blame me for feeling like his cause nothing in life ever happens and I make things happen with my mind and it KILLS ME!
A-Loser[OP]
03.05.2019 02:51
LinkAre you tired of me yet..? Probably not cause no one cares...I'm tired of myself...I cant change cause my body won't let me change and it's a endless cycle of it's your fault and the monster making me feel like this....nothing will change...the poster told me that in my nightmares....People say they have wonderful dreams...there are to many popular kids in my school and Im not one of them...I'm a loser...A broken soul...and Monster..dragging people down..making a mess...get yelled at...no one can save me from this monster that is turning me into the monster dragging kids down in a deep hole and making the stuck there until they give up of life and they die...
A-Loser[OP]
03.05.2019 02:54
LinkThe monster is me...I'm the monster....I'm keeping myself down and dragging myself into he deepest hole and making me stay in the hole until I give up...I can't give up because people call me strong and I believe them even though I KNOW it's a lie...I keep going cause the monster-MYSELF tells me to keep trying cause it hurts me every time I try...I try..and try...and try and try and try but is not healing..I fall down and hurt...I'm a broken pain of glass already broken once you buy me in the shop and no one buys me cause they don't care cause I'm broken...
That's what I am..
A Broken Monster..