stuffs to get off my chest
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Sugarllama
25.10.2018 01:04
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Sometimes I get sad over little things
I know we all have meanings in life, but what if there was no true meaning? What if the only meaning us humans have in life are to be born, to live a long but seemingly short life, and to die? Were we born to die?
People always go "It's a small mistake, no worries!" but I can overreact sometimes. I always find a solution but I only recognize the bad side. I feel like an idiot when it comes to those things.
I talk too much at school. After that I feel like my friend's don't actually care about anything I talk about. I bet only two of my friends care.
I'm still a child, but a child can think. Sometimes my mind wanders off to think about the future. What would my future be if I can't accomplish nothing. I try my best and work hard, yes, but then I feel like society only sees your mistakes, not your effort. My fifth grade teacher says that failure is when you don't try, which is true, but somewhere in the world there will be a person who will call someone a fai
lure and not recognize the effort the "failing" person made.
My goals for this school year is to actually write and complete a story. My other goal is to stay neutral. Writing a story is kind of easy for me. Plan a plot, a storyline, draft it, and then the final copy. But then there's neutrality. How long can I keep it up?
I wonder why I exist in the first place. When I was little, I couldn't do a simple task for my mom and she yelled at me. I cried and ran up to my room and didn't want to come out. My older brother and sister had to do the task, and I overheard them talking about how I was so much trouble, how I can't even do anything, and how I was annoying. Nowadays, since I'm going to school I'm actually doing something. But that doesn't mean I passed my crybaby stage. I'm crying rn because of this paragraph.
Oh yeah, speaking of crying, I often try to hide it at school and I wear a mask. And then I cry either while walking home or at home.
Imma go cry for a little more, goodbye