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Alrighty Lets start with my mom. She's a beautiful woman and a *cough* er great mother, I think- Anyway whenever i draw a picture and show it to her she criticizes it, so that's part of why I don't feel good about my art, Then there's the part where she said I wasn't the singer, or speaker, but the artist, and then basically tells me Scy is better, Or how when I DO tell her how I feel she basically says I can't feel that way There was a time she called me a bully straight to my face- Y'all are probably gonna tell me to grow up... And it's been like this for over 7 years...

Then there's my dad. We used to have a wonderful bond, since I'm a tomboy irl, We would pretend to wrestle and stuff since I was 5 and under at the time, but then my little sister was born and it was like we never had a relationship, He's always mad at me and accusing me or when something happens and I'm involved they always find a way to center it on me... I've learned to bottle it up though, So mom and dad won't have to know, and they won't tell me I can't feel that way :)

Then there are my sister's, Now here's the thing, I AM the favorite, And I'm the middle child, I'm more independent than them and I always have a bit of and attitude, or sas if that's what you want to call it, BUT because I'm the favorite they think I have to solve their conflicts and they are always bombarding Me I can never be alone, My older sister ScyQueen, always tells my parents my personal feelings, well she used to. I just can't escape...

Then there's me, I've been thinking about suicide lately, BUT I know that God wouldn't be proud, so I stay away from harm, besides I have a huge fear of pain and death, so yeah.. Then there's the fact that not only do I feel like dirt from my family, but I make them feel that way, Whenever I'm sad though, I just listen to sad music, it helps me let it out, or I write about it, So far the only things keeping me alive are God,the Bible, and the fear of pain I have...

Well I guess that's it for now...

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