i ****ing hate it..all i want is what others have I hate myself I'm just a greedy, spoiled brat I don't deserve anything really I didn't ask to be born I didn't ask to live this world is only worse with my existence in it I hate it I this feeling I feel lonely no one has ever been able to be "that person" for me I don't want t shove all my feelings into my friends they have their own problems or not even that maybe they are super care free and in lala land I hate it I hate this feeling I want to choke cant I just..die? i don't like it end it please please just stop go away.