IM TOXIC. most people know that. most people have tried to help but have gotten hurt. yes I lie about some shit not all. yes this is my fault. Yes I have anger issues. yes I lie to friends to keep them happy at points. i haven't cut myself in a month. yes that's shitty of me to lie about but I cant help it. my head isn't right. like must of us here. im still ****ing trying to get myself together. misunderstanding of some posts. Dead? Lmao I wish. im afraid of dying. so ****ing afraid. its sad but that doesn't mean i haven't TRIED this week. rope has been taken away. but yes. ALSO. DONT ASSUME IM DEAD IF I POSTED SOMETHING LIKE "bye bye" i might need a break like a lot of the time or well. all the time. i have marks on my neck. fadded but still. parent tramua. yes. i have a lot. im not pinning this on my family. this is me. i have done wrongs but im a human and so are you. we all make mistakes don't we. but i need yall to ****ing help sometimes. NOT PINNING THIS ON ANYONE. YES IM STILL SOMEWHAT A LITTLE

MANIPULATIVE, BUT YOU NEED TO HELP OUT AND CALL ME OUT SOME WHEN I AM. NOT SHIT LIKE THIS. drinking. i have some this month or will,, i belive last on 1the 16th of April. i quit. its so damn nasty. otherwise that's all I want to state now. DONT COME AFTER ME BC I ADMITTED SOME SHIT. NOW LEAVE ME BE AND LEMME EAT SMH

now please. im shaking to much atm. im taking a 15 min break.