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Venting by words?
19 comments
Tundra[OP]
29.08.2018 04:43
LinkWhen I vent I don't usually make bloody art and all that, I just try to say it.
Anyway, I feel like I might just pull my hair out. I feel like everytime I move it feels like a needle gets poked into me. But, I don't really know how to explain why..
Tundra[OP]
29.08.2018 04:45
LinkI just feel really uncomfortable for some reason. It's not like I'm getting bullied or anything though, I mean, I could take them on and they'd end up on the ground. But, that's what I keep thinking. And I feel like I'm weak.
Tundra[OP]
29.08.2018 04:47
LinkI feel like I'm weak.
I hate that I think I'm weak.
I hate that I am too lazy.
I hate that I complain too much.
I hate that I'm not productive.
I hate that I don't get things DONE.
*sigh* I hate almost everything about myself.
ALemming
29.08.2018 04:49
LinkWell if it makes you feel any better your art is pretty damn good. And procrastination is normal.
Tundra[OP]
29.08.2018 04:50
LinkI feel like.. My mom hates me.. And my siblings hate me.. They yell at me a lot, and it's bothering me. Sometimes it even makes me cry. But, I don't like crying in front of people, so most people don't know I cry.
I don't like talking about my feelings.
My dad says that feelings dont matter.
Tundra[OP]
29.08.2018 04:52
LinkI hate hearing my art is "Good" and "Amazing"
Its not. I'm trying to improve but I don't know what to improve on.
Tundra[OP]
29.08.2018 04:53
LinkBut its not just procrastination, sometimes it gets to the point of when I just dont do it
Tundra[OP]
29.08.2018 04:54
LinkI hate that.
I hate that I'm fake and I feel so guilty about it.
Tundra[OP]
29.08.2018 04:55
LinkSince I'm venting about this stuff, I might as well say it.
ALemming
29.08.2018 04:55
LinkYou can keep your feelings repressed to a point, but venting now and then lets you get things out and take a bit of a weight off yourself. Also, during HS me and my parents would have continuous cycles of vicious arguments, where they would eventually just force me to leave their apartment, but eventually they come back around. It might work if you try waiting out this period, and they might be more accepting or reasonable. If not, you might want to confide in other people than your close family, try to keep up a strong connection online or at school or something.
ALemming
29.08.2018 04:58
LinkIf your art looks bad to you then you are improving. If you want to get started on somewhere to improve you can look online for reference images for realistic or comic art style drawing. Some of the most important things you can start with is doing practice with construction, and if you are into realism, shading.
Tundra[OP]
29.08.2018 05:00
LinkI'm trying to work on digital art more
I've been keeping this a secret for a while, and only one person knew about it.
You guys remember or know CatStudios?
Well, I'm her.
Tundra is currently my third account.
And for my name, Aris on CatStudios, Alex on Panther and Tundra. I'm keeping that to myself and that one person.
For my age, I said I was 11 on Catstudios. At the time I was, but now I'm in the range of 11-13. You guys guess.
Before anyone says anything just let me finish.
I made Panthera because it was going to be an account for my sister, but then she decided to not have the account and make one for herself.
Of course, it was too late. But I liked the name Panthera and decided to switch over to that one. I was going to reveal to you guys that I was CatStudios on that account, but I got so carried away in it that I just forgot.
Then I remembered it, so I made the account Tundra to make up for it and so I could say so earlier.