oh god my pfp ughhhh i couldnt draw for shit anyways do you want to hear what happened in my life so i can just dump a bunch of stupid sht on you guys because its been a very overwhelming year for me, pandemic and everything set aside.

Anyways, the day aftter the night I had created this account and stayed up until 5 am the next morning, i was woken up at noon and i had to go wash the dishes, and i took a nap. my dad is a proffesioanl artist and so he has an ipad pro with a few drawing applications and of course, an apple pencil wich i had been using that night. I lost the apple pencil, and to ths day i still cannot find it. The next week is a blur, but i get to my mom's house and i draw more on paper and shit. Soon, on Februart 5th of 2020 we have to move to my grandmas house or else my family would be on the streets, and before we moved in a couple things happened. I got my phone taken away, and i got caught ut my mom didnt really care that time. But I got it taken away for a different thing, and my sneaky little ass too it, and my friend sent me a text saying "shut the **** up" i was in a group chat with karle and davin. i dont have contact with them anymore because karley has legally gone missing or died, and i dont really talk to davi

anyways, by the time we moved i snuck back my kindle fire and posted a bit on my main, but knowing my past it was far too risky. but now im kinda a pro at hiding what im doing, and i hid it under the couch around march and that was that. i didnt look for it, i was disconnected. that was fine. Around April i got a new phone, and that was fun. that was when i was working up the courage to come out to my mom as a lesbian and i did so in june, three days from my birthday. i didnt tell her the full story, i was a little scared and i thought that she would think it was just a phase or something so i told her i was bisexual even though i dont like men at all, and i realised i was trans, but now i think im not, but i dont know so dont ask what my gender is because i dont know either. of course, my mo took this like i told her that i was hitler disguised as her child. she said that once she comes home we'll have a talk about it. of course, by talk she meant that she was going to freak out, slap me in the face and t-

(im sorry there's a character limit on comments lol) -han take my phone, and send me to connecticut to go live with relatives for three months. my mom found out i was cutting myself in august, and what do you do when your child is suicidal? well my mom thinks you should throw away half of their stuff, call them a freak, and give them no basic human rights Am i allowed to eat besides when she says? no am i allowed to get less than a three in my grades? no am i allowed to wear hoodies? no shes making me were croptops and skirts just because i said i was transgender like yeah that helps a ton, vedrana, you asshole. But you know what? i had lost all hope in the future. i knew that teh first thing id do when i got back to utah was commit suicide. i had no hope, and i knew that nothing was going to turn out right at that age, and that if that was my life there was no point in living. until one faithful day i got a promising phone call from my father, that gave me a little bit of hope for the future and maybe

it would be ok, and now here i am typing this out on my school computer about to cry, sitting in a pink armchair, and i go back to utah in three days. ill let you guys know if everything is okay. if im not back on rutthecatisthebest, saty-weirdo, or this account, i died in a plane crash, got murdered or commited suicide. goodbye.

or @cheeseandcoffee is another one of my accounts.

WHY WAS I SO DRAMATIC LMFAOOOOO

wait no i actually read it wtf was i really doing this bad 7 months ago

i dont remember writing this or ever wanting to kill myself, this and i sent my friends a suicide note, really domt know how i forgot that this all happened wtf

im so glad i didnt kill myself im so sexy and cool

7 months ago was back then it was so long ago bro i barely rememebr