I love you... I'm sorry for hurting you... I deserve to get yelled at and for you to hurt me right back from calling me by my name instead of my nicknames... I deserve to die and not eat and not sleep and no friends... you deserve so much and I hurt you... and I will never forgive myself.... ever... it will stick with me until I ****ing die..

I will never forgive myself.... I don't deserve to.... I can't take back what I said and I was mad because I lost my friend trying to tell him to stop constantly sending too many letters at once to someone ... and then I got trash thrown on me and someone tried to break my hand... and I deserved all those things..

I don't deserve you.... you deserve so much better... I don't want to lose you.. I was scared and angry and sad... I didn't know what else to say beside the mean things and the bad thoughts in my head and I... I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I'm so sorry... T^T i am a mean person... and a bad person... and I was too worried about someone bullying me over my ****ing art than to check on you.... which I did 30000 ****ing times before I got bullied..

I'm so ****ing stupid I should just go throw myself in a pit of fire and drown under water and stab myself and hang myself until I ****ing die... I don't deserve to be standing on this world... I don't deserve anything... All I deserve is to ****ing die because I'm so useless.. All I do is ****ing hurt people even when I don't intend to... and It hurts me so badly too...

I should just ****ing die and maybe.. that is what I'm going to do.... because I hurt you... and karma is a ****ing ***** like that.

no I hurt you..

you even said so yourself..

no... it's not.. I said I wasn't going to ever ****ing hurt you and look what I did... T^T

I don't want to lose you... T^T... I don't want you to leave me..

..I hurt you and I will never forgive myself and that is that..

you were mad at me... you called me by my name and said I hurt you.. and that hurt me even more than I already was... because you've never said that before ever.. and it ****ing killed me..

and I deserved it...

I didn;t even see you were talking to me because it was on the ****ing other page and someone was bullying me and I was too worried abotu ****ing that T^T I ****ing hate myself

you're mad at me.. you're mad at me...

T^T..

Im sorry.. T^T I'm sorry Im sorry T^T...

no its not.. ill never forgive myself... never..

T^T why won't you even say I love you or anything or hold me or kiss me or something T^T oh that's right because I don't ****ing deserve any of that..

ily? what about ilysfm? hm? Oh yeah I don't deserve that either T^T....

Ily2... T^T....... <333 I won't but you will..

I'm sorry... T^T I just keep messing up..

Im just ****ing done with myself I can;t ****ing exist anymore all I do is ****ing hurt people..

I'm sorry I hurt you... and made you sad... I wasn't trying to I was mad and sad.. T^T I won't forgive myself ever for it.. ever.. and on to my death and on... I'm sorry T^T... I don't want to know I hurt you and It hurts me so bad to remember you saying that I hurt you and you to call me by my name instead of my nicknames and you to be angry at me... and then make me feel like I was a ****ing dick about it... and then make me feel like I was a mean horrible person.... I'm sorry..

I just.. I don't.. I just wish I could take back what I said.. I just wish that.... you'd still be able to talk to me all the time... but that... that wish didn't come true...

you only seem mad with me and that's hurting me so bad right now... But I deserve it.... I should have never hurt you no matter how I was feeling.... I'm so sorry.. I'll never forgive myself and you don't have to either.. and It's not okay and you know that you do and I can see that you do..

I just want to take what I said back but.. I ****ing can't... if I could take it back I ****ing would in a heartbeat...

But I can't...

and it's all killing me.. slowly but fast... I'm sorry... You have every right to be mad and angry with me and tell me over and over again I hurt you and to hurt me back like this... .. It feels like a stab straight through the heart.... and I deserve it..

I just.. I love you so much I can't lose you...... I can't.... I'm scared that's what scares me so much....It hurts me just thinking about it...

I love you so ****ing much and I I'm so ****ing sorry T^T all I do is hurt people T^T.. I'm a mean horrible person... T^T.. and you admitted that to me... saying how I hurt you and how you had to do all these things and indicating it was BECAUSE OF ME that you werent eating BECAUSE OF ME you got in trouble BECAUSE OF ME you're hurt BECAUSE OF ME THAT YOU ARE DOING ALL THESE ****ING THINGS AND I TAKE IT FOR GRANITE.. and I don't take it for granite.. but It's my fault.. all of it.. and you can't hide that because last night you pointed it out.. It's like you didn't think of how bad it would hurt me.. and it didn't just hurt me it killed me.. I had like 15 heart burns in the span of that ****ing thing.. I didn't sleep. I'm so tired and I haven't even eaten and I don't think I'm going to.. And I was so happy to turn my attitude around when I got home before I GOT ****ING TRASH THROWN ON ME AND MY HAND ALMOST BROKEN BUT IT DOESN'T SEEM LIKE YOU GIVE A ****ING DAMN. But I deserve it.. and That's that..

And I'm sorry... I .. I love you so much and.. You mean the ****ing world to me and to hear someone I loved and said I'd never hurt and made sure I didn't hurt.. say that I hurt them.. (you) .. then it really kills every personality every moment spent with you every hour and second thinking of you every talk... and it just killed my heart...

But then again.. I deserved it..

and I'm sorry.. I ****ing love you I don't ****ing know what i'd do without you.. ever... I would probably be dead by now if you were without me I'd probably be dead back then if you didn't find me and I didn't find you..

and I'll never forget those cute little pictures and you'd say you loved me and then your smile would be the cutest ****ing damn thing in the entire world.. and I would say I was so ****ing happy and glad and it meant the world to me that you were mine, and are mine.. and You would disagree that your smile was ****ing everything to me and when you said I hurt you.. I didn't see the beautiful smile anymore.. all I saw was angry and sad.. towards me..

and it ****ing killed every part of me..

Because I love you so much and no one could ****ing take the place of you. not even the richest girl in the world or a girl with ****ing plastic surgery or something.. You're all I ****ing need... and want.. If I had to chose one thing in a store and it was a store of girls, or all the girls lined up in a line Then I'd chose you with no hesitation and no ****ing thinking

Because I ****ing I ****ing love you and need you and you're ****ing everything to me and I ouldn't give any of you up just for some ****ing fake ***** or slut.. you're my whore my slut and my *****, no one else will be only you..

you're mine.. and I never want that to change..

and **** all the people who laugh at ddlg I ****ING LOVE IT AND THAT'S ****ING THAT. IF ANYONE ****ING MAKES FUN OF IT OR LAUGHS AT US ILL ****ING TURN THEIR SKULL INSIDE OUT. THEN THEY'LL SEE WHO'S LAUGHING

Because I love ddlg I really do. I love taking care of you cause It makes me feel you're mine and that's what I want because you are mine I love taking care of you and giving you stuffies and milky.. and crying with you.. and laughing with you and cuddling you and kissing you and **** playtime is like probably the best.

(not like im horny or anything but) I just ****ing love you and nothing will change that and not even words can describe how ****ing happy and grateful I am for you..

You changed my life from a living hell into a ****ing paradise.. Everyday I'm with you it's constantly sunny and even when it's cold your smile is warm and... even though I'm like so much taller than you and you're really short that doesn't change my perspective of you.. Well Not perspective on how small I see you, but how much I love you will always stay the same and that is like numbers can't even count as far of how much I love you..

I'm sorry for typing so much... I love you.. so ****ing much... <333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333

Also It hurts moving my arm because I punched it super hard so I could break it because I was mad at myself, also so I don't have to do ****ing gross volleyball for Physical ed.

I love you.. and that will never ever ever change.. I'm so so so so so so so so very sorry for hurting you and I will never forgive myself for it..

T^T

I love you... so much...

why do you have 0 emotion over me.. T^T

did you not even read the paragraphs and stuff? T^T...

please answer T^T...

Im sorry okay? IM ****ING SORRY I ****ING GET IT IM ****ING SORRY T^T

I'm sorry T^T why wont you even

you wont even love me like you used to T^T im sorry I hurt you I am I ..

I just want you to be happy with me again....

I'm sorry I make you feel that way..... I'm sorry I make you want to kill yourself and make you not able to eat and make you sad and hurt you...

You won't even kiss me or hold me anymore... T^T

..It doesn't feel right being happy with me... really..

you don't even kiss me or hold me anymore.... not when im sad hurt or anything..

it doesn't even see mlike you love me anymore T^T

I just want you to be happy with me but you're not T^T..

you have 0 emotion literally 0 emotion towards me....

I'm sorry T^T... I'll be happy I promise but you have to be too I'm sorry T^T

I.. I.. I didn't mean it like that.. I..

I meant... in like... an emotion...way..

...im a **** up

..dont go..

please...

dont go.... i need you.. please.. T^T im sorry...

I didnt mean it T^T

But T^T... I need kisses and cuddles but.. T^T...

I'm sorry.. T^T I didn't mean it T^T

...

ilysfm too... <3333333

you just ignored me...

you didn't even kiss me or cuddle me or hold me...

I asked for kisses and cuddles but you just ignored me and went off T^T

Please just.. please... love me... like you used to T^T I'll be better I promise.. T^T I'll be better...

I just.. I just need you ... please.. I'll be better... im sorry im not good enough... Please.. I just want you to kiss me again and hold me with your cold little hands xD T^T... and to cuddle me and to play with stuffies with me... and let me hold you and cuddle you and kiss you... and take care of you... and give you milky... I promise I'll be better this time.. I promise I'll take care of you better... and I'll never hurt you again... please...

I cried all day yesterday all day before yesterday and night and night yesterday and all this morning.. I don't want to cry anymore.. I just want you to be happy with me T^T

please... look I can do better... *kisses her neck* see... I can I promise see *kisses her* see.. I can I promise I can *kisses her face and cuddles her* see... you're mine forever and always.... I can't loose you.. *kisses her neck* I'm sorry *pets her head* I'm sorry bubby.. I really am..

look T^T

you know what no >:I I'm not gonna be sad I'm gonna be happy for you I'm gonna be big boy >:3 ^/////^ I'm gonna cry though because I love you so much xD TwT Here let me start by being romantic c; *wink wonk* Hey bebeh. You lookin' fineeeee. can I pick you up sometime tonight c; Your so hot that I couldn't tell if it was the sun or you, turns out it was you c; I'm cheesy but we're about to get cheesy xD Omg THAT SOUNDS SO DIRTY xD but we're about to get down and dirty c; XD i'm so sorry

Q^Q... what?! Baby?! Ilysfm too I will T^T I always do What are you okay?! Q^Q..

Baby?!

come on baby come on speak T^T.. tell me you're okay tell me what's wrong what's happening come on baby come on T^T..

T^T baby please.. come on tell me you're okay... T^T what is it baby what is it T^T

Shhh Shhh

ily a lot too T^T <33 shhh stay safe for me okay? *pets her head and kisses her* you'll be okay it's okay shh T^T

Whats wrong why is she doing that shh T^T

Im here if you need me or anything baby I've got you T^T

What? how does that give her a ****ing excuse to do that shit *holds her* shh

Dont go then I'm here baby I'm here shhh Q^Q

what?! ****ing hell this woman is insane *holds her tightly* shh I think.. you should ****ing get out of there

*holds her* shhhh Q^Q.

I've got you Q^Q..

does she have a gun that you know of? Q^Q

Shh listen to my heartbeat and hold onto me if you want I've got you Q^Q..

Yes? Q^Q

Shhhh Q^Q *pets her head* I've got you.

shhh Q^Q lay your head on my chest

listen shh listen closely listen to dada's heartbeat okay?

*kisses her*

yes?

Q^q... you need to eat please... T^T.. I don't want you to become like I was.. because I feel it's my fault

Can I have kissies too I havent had them for about a week or so

Shhhh *holds her tightly*

No no shh just wait it out a some minutes oka? just to make sure it's safe

shh I know I know Q^Q *kisses her and holds her hand* shh

Lookie bubby *puts her hand on my chest* see shh

shhhh calm

Lookie *hands her bun bun and kisses her neck*

Awww you had to be big girl? *pets her head*

xD awww shhh *kisses her head*

*sits her down in my lap* You want dada to rub your back?

aww so you like the free stuff xD you don't like using money uh? xD

shhh Q^Q *rubs her back*

aww shh. So you're sonic now? xD

xD shhhh

AWWW GOOD JOB!!! I'm so proud ^/////^ *kisses her neck* shh

can daddy have one more kissie?

Q^Q shh

*kisses her back*

question... Do you still like kissing me? Or want to kiss me anymore? Q^Q

It's cause you were being a silly goose last time and I asked for kissies and cuddles and you just left xD Q^Q

are you telling the truth?

yes you are ^///^ you're a silly goose *tickles her tummy* xD

^////^ yesssss *kisses her neck and her face a bunch* >w<

^///^ Q^Q mmh

can we wait till 11:11? ^///^ Q^Q

xD ^///^ I bet i'll win

if you make it what surprise do you want

^////^You're a cutie. Why aren't you doing you're little w thing with the words?

your*

Shh it's okay bubby, what surprise do you want if you make it?

do you wannnnt playtime c;/kissies and cuddles orrrr just milky and no daddy? xD

what about playtime?

is it because I'm better than you at it?

you're just jelly I'm in charge and I'm better at it c;

Yes I am >w< Daddy is better than you at it *tickles her* xD

Yesss xD you're jelly

bubby probably fell asleep didnt you

*picks her up and carries her to the bed and lays down with her and puts blankie over us and cuddles her tightly*

Now you're sleepy >:3

you're gonna loooooseeee

^///^ Q^Q I want more kissies and cuddles too I want you to hold me too but Q^Q you don't seem to want to do that at the moment xD Q^Q

my foot hurts xD

^////^ Q^Q what bubby? *pets her head*

what do you mean by breakdown? like when?

Q^Q

*kisses her head*

xD nooooo you're going straight to bed at 11:11 xD

xD uhuh. But so is sleeping! xD

Buuuuut then you wont be able to talk to meeee

and that makes dada really sad

but I still get really sad

pumpkin why wont you cuddle me kiss me and hold me?

am I... SCARY ROOOAR

^////^

one more minute

Can I have cuddles

^/////^ mhm *kisses her neck* nini c..p pretend im there ilysfm stay safe bubby <33

nini bubby <3333 I'll talk to you tomorrow and maybe I wont have to ask you to give me kisses and cuddles xD

sweet dreams bubby pretend im holding you and kissing you okay?

*kisses her multiple times ad cuddles her*

wakey wakeyyy

Im gonna sing you a song until you're awake >:3

Find me here, and speak to me I want to feel you, I need to hear you You are the light that's leading me to the place Where I find peace again You are the strength that keeps me walking You are the hope that keeps me trusting You are the life to my soul You are my purpose You're everything And how can I stand here with you And not be moved by you Would you tell me how could it be any better than this? You calm the storms and you give me rest You hold me in your hands You won't let me fall uwu babdba! xD

You steal my heart and you take my breath away Would you take me in, take me deeper now And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you Would you tell me how could it be any better than this And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you Would you… Cause you're all I want, you're all I need You're everything, everything You're all I want You're all I need You're everything, everything You're all I want You're all I need You're everything, everything You're all I want You're all I need Everything, everything

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you Would you tell me how could it be any better than this And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you Would you tell me how could it be any better-any better than this And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you Would you tell me how could it be any better than this Would you tell me how could it be any better than this

yee haw xD Q^Q I just realized.. you've been trying to avoid kissing me lately and cuddling me and holding me idk what's up with that but it kind of hurts xD because I keep asking for them and I never really get them unless I asked but before you gave them to me a lot without me asking and it was ****ing cute and adorable. But you're beinga silly little goose and ignoring most of my whats it called again? xD most of my uhhh Shoot what's it called? xD most of my requests for you to kiss me and hold me and cuddle me. I'm kind of well I wouldn't say suspicious but kind of in that way about you not wanting to kiss me and stuff. I understand I hurt you but When you hurt me I still gave you kisses without you having to ask xD I guess you're too little to understand >w< *kisses her* my beautiful baby *sits her down on my leg and wraps my arms around her* mine you're so cute god I love you ^////^ even though I have to ask for kissies ;-; also realized that you don't ant to do playtime anymore. Which is kind of

weird because you are very horny when you're little NO OFFENSE! xD

But I kind of wish I didn't have to ask or I didn't have to ask so many times until you actually did it. Like example I asked for them when I was hurt and sad and on the verge of killing myself and you just left like a little silly goose *kisses her head* And then yesterday I asked for cuddles and you to hold me like 2 or 3 times until you actually did that but you only cuddles me and you didn't hold me xD

Like are you okayyy? do I need to get a doctorrr? are you still mad and angry with me? did I do something wrong??

just please tell me truthfully. Because whenever I was hurt and sad you'd calm me down and you never actually did that.. I just realized how much saying that hurt me xD ouch. Please I love you I think i'd deserve to know the truth..

Q^Q.. I love you

WEE WOOOOO i'm boredddd *climbs on top of her and licks her neck&

baby I have to do dishes really soon and I might not finish them tonight because there's a lot, but just know i love you so much and to c.a.p and pretend im there <33 you're the best ^///^ Q^Q even though you didnt talk to me at all today... T^T Q^Q I couldn't breathe last night and I was super dizzy o I was hoping you'd talk to me in the morning T^T but you didn't but that's okay Q^Q.. I love you stay safe <333 I'll check up on you in the morning and stuff and talk to you ^///^ *kisses her and her neck*

Q^Q i finished the dishes sitting down surprisingly.

I miss you a lot.

:D

BUBBY! :D

Are you proud of me I did the dishes with my broken foot! :D

^///^

I wont have to ask for kissies and cuddles today right?. Q^Q

^////^ shh

*kisses her*

You're my beautiful baby

^///^ Yes you are Q^Q

I couldn t breathe last night it was really scary I just wanted you to hold me and tell me it was okay so i was trying to lay down and cuddle my pillow but everytime I did My face got like tingly on the inside for some reason and it felt fuzzy and I had a big headache and could barely breathe.

It was really scary but I managed to sleep and start breathing normally again

Q^Q shh

dada is okay

see! ^////^ daddy is right here *picks her up and sits her down in my lap and rubs her legs* you're little leggies

^///^ question. would you ever hold daddy if daaddy was hurt

Awwww shhh shhh It's just a question baby Q^Q *kisses her head*

*puts her head and moves her hair out of her face and wraps my arms around her* shh

pets* *kisses her* daddy is okay right now it's okay

OMFG I ****ING HATE THIS ****ING UGH never ****ing works

Sorry I was yelling at flipanim xD

*holds her*

*kisses her and rubs her back*

What if I stop breathing in my sleep Q^Q..

no im not im not Q^Q I have to go ilysfm c.a.p rpetend im there ilysfm *kisses her* you're the best try and talk to me tomorrow I'll miss you <333 and dream about yo uas always and pretend you're there

^///^ I love you Do i have to ask for kissy and cuddles Q^Q

awww

shhhhhh *kisses her neck*

*rubs her back* bye bubby i love you ^///^

Good Morning sweetheart *kisses her and her neck and pets her gently* dada's little baby girl

cutie *kisses her head*

I miss you <33

afk <3

back I miss you bubbyyyyy but you're probs at drivers ed xD

Q^Q

*picks her up and lays her down in bed and tucks her in and sits beside her and plays with her hair and kisses her head* Q^Q

I guess you aren't getting on today?.. Q^Q I guess not Ow my foot hurts so bad T^T Q^Q i love you a lot

I have to go, ilysfm <333 you're the best.. I'll check on you in the morning <33 c.a.p pretend im there i always do i'll always be holding you and kissing you so pretend im holding you and kissing you and making you warm and kissing your neck and your little head and playing with your hair and looking into your beautiful cute little eyes and face. I'll talk to you in the morning <333

night baby *kisses her neck and her head* <333

nini <3333 *tucks her in with me and kisses her* i love you forever and always <33

Ily bubby

Still haven't answered I see...

I'm starting to get really really sad... And I'm getting bad thoughts.. What if your mother killed you in your sleep o_o or even worse what if your diabetes took you away T^T WAHHHHH what if they kicked you out o_o

T^T please speak to me *kisses her neck* I'm scared and sad Q^Q..

^//////^ yay! I live you too <3333

Love* xD I missed you Q^Q xD okay why ate you skipping? XD *kisses her neck*

Afk love you xD I have to watch people play xD

Aww *pets her head* I'm back sweet heart ^/////^ *kisses her head*

Don't.. Don't hurt or kill yourself I know she hurts you and makes you feel that way but think about how it would make me feel..especially since I love you and I take care of you.and with you to be idk what to do

You listen to her and you shouldn't she just liked to hurt people I want to take care of you and help you and everything cause you mean the world to me <333

You shouldn't be sad just from one perspective and opinion from someone out of 9 billion people in the world. Don't kill yourself or hurt yourself.. Please if be ****ing hurt want sad and overwhelmed and is probably kill myself too..

If*

Id *

.. If you think killing yourself is gonna solve that issue its not and in sorry she's doing that but you matter to me and if you killed yourself my life would change to a ****ing hell

Shh I'm sorry.. I just don't want you to hurt yourself... Or kill yourself... T^T please.. I can't lose you T^T *holds onto her tightly* promise me you won't T^T

T^T *holds her* mine

Shh Q^Q *rubs her legs*

*pets her and kisses her head*

Q^Q shh lets lay down okay? *picks her up and lays her down in bed with me and puts blankie over us and kisses her*

Shhh ill be waiting for you okay? And if you aren't back by then ill just say Nini and stuff okay? *holds her and rubs her back*

Shhhh lookie bubby *tickles her* >:3

^//////^ mhm! Yes!

^/////^ yuh huh I'm gonna... EAT YOU! xD *puts her hand in my mouth*

RAWRRR

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Cutieee

Cutieeer bubby

Cutieee *

Shhh what's wrong? Q^Q

You don't like the froggy picture is it gross?

Awww xD poor baby I'm sorry *kisses her head* daddy was just high making groggy better by performing surgery on it!

Uhh * froggy * I WASNT HIGH XD

The froggy is alive daddy fixed it! ^////^ I love you too bubby *kisses her*

Shh Q^Q what's wrong?

Q^Q..

Im sorry Q^Q..

I have to go ilysfm c.a.p pretend im there I always do and will I love you I'll check up on you in the morning and everything.. I'm sorry you feel that way.. I'm sorry T^T

I know but I don't like it when you're sad T^T

c.a.p pretend im there i always do <33 ahem..

can I have kisses again.. without having to ask T^T

I love you nini sweet dreams *kisses her*

I dont have any long left..

please..

Nevermind then.... Bye... Goodnight... I love you....

T^T i wont be able to sleep tonight now.. All I wanted was you to kiss me and hold me and laugh with me and smile with me and tell me goodnight and everything T^T

But I don't see that's happening tonight T^T..

I'm sorry.... I didn't mean to sound mean or be mean... I ... I'm sorry T^T

I'm a mistake.. T^T

I want to hurt myself and die.. I want to jump off a ****ing building and gang myself and ****ing stab myself. Why am I saying want when I can do all these things..

I feel like I don't matter anymore... My parents don't care about me no one gives a shit about me at school..

I'm wearing the hoodie today.. T^T

I love you... T^T..

Help me please T^T..

I drew a swoll egg in math.. XD .. Ill be happy with you I'm sorry if I hurt you or was mean.. I love you