I'm sorry I usually don't do vents because I don't want to worry you guys y'know ?? I just .. ugH The thing is that everything is just shouting at me. The pain and the past. Its just coming back. The past is coming back to me. Things that happened 2 years ago are happening once again. People at my school talking about gross stuff. The stuff online is happening again. I've become to perverted.. I'm turning disgusting. I don't want that. Each day I look in the mirror and I realize that I'm a perverted guy. Also that I don't have any reason to live. Like srsly? I hate school. I suck at drawing. I only have a few friends which are slowly not becoming my friends. I try to suck all this in and try to be happy for you guys. I try to smile and laugh. Makes jokes and that. I just.. I'm feeling broken. Torn from being 2 people. People which are different from each other..