also, Animatedstuff, if you are reading this, im sorry for what i have done. i know that it was selfish and stupid but if this argument continues, it can escalate to many bad things.

i am taking the blame for all this and you can say what you want about me because it will not matter anymore because i will leave and you can be at peace.

I wish you well on your journey and may we meet again animatedstuff, for i am the one with forgiveness. Find it in your heart to forgive me and stop this madness.

as XXXTENTACION once said, "I advise you not to hide your feelings don't pretend to be okay when you're not okay don't pretend to be happy when you're sad it'll only lead to your misery" -XXXTENTACION