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angrykid
08.06.2019 18:28
Linkdamn I like ur new artstyle
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Ren-Jin[OP]
10.06.2019 14:43
LinkAh ty lol it ain't rlly "new"
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hey, i'm just coming back too. just this once bc i need someone to vent to, and i trust you kinda? well this morning i was talking to my best friend, and i was talking abt this boy i am crushing on. (some background on the boy: he is the dreamiest boy ever. MY type. he is nerdy, but super strong and smart and funny. ,,, like peter parker, or marty McFly!!! and he loves 80's. like,,,, loves it so much. and i do too. i wish we could like, time travel to the 1980's, me and him. in this story i'll call him Peter, even though thats not his name.) anyway while talking to my friend i found out peter likes my close friend. and whats not to like abt her? shes pretty and nice and friendly and sings good... but i'm devastated. i feel ugly and worthless and a waste of space, even though i know i'm not.
why is she better than me? IS she better than me? what have i been doing wrong? why does this happen to me with every boy i've ever liked? why do my crushes always go for my friends? whats wrong with me? i loved him.... i LOVE him. but he just thinks of me as a friend. he calls me a 'bro'. a few nights ago i went up to him and gave him the biggest hug and said 'i love you so much' and he said 'i love you too, bro'. why am i a 'bro'? i want him to love me back. i feel like i NEED him to love me back. i feel empty, dead, like a shell. i all of the sudden feel TERRIBLE. this always happens!! i'm all happy for a while and crush on a boy, then i find out he likes my friend and my depression comes seeping back into my life.
Everyone is different my friend, but nobody is ever better than anyone. There's nothing wrong with you, and maybe they just ain't the ones for you, cuz you're an amazing person and deserve so much more than to self doubt or hate yourself. It saddens me to hear you say this and I'm so so so sorry for this late as hell reply, but I know it's hard. I can't say much because I stopped loving and caring so much for others a loooong time ago. This may hurt for now but just know that it'll be okay <3 In the end, everything is okay. If it's not okay, it's not the end :D I hope this helped in some way shape or form, cuz I want you to be happy. Don't let this one boy or those others get u down, there will be more, and more, until you come across someone that WILL love you.
-Sincerily with Love,
Ren Jin <3