and kinda on tiktok

Currently, im only active on Tumblr, Toyhouse(kinda), and Instagram.

I did type this before post. I wanted to think if I actually wanted to post something or just vent to myself in a private anim, thinking someone else would read it. But I know no one will unless they somehow got in

I do plan on trying to leave here. I really do. I just need to work on myself to be able too. and as of right now, I am getting worse. Weirdly, the less ive been on here, The less ive vented like this, the worse ive been. And I need to get my feelings out.

All thats been on my mind is I need to harm myself. That no one likes me. and That I need to speak to someone even if they hate me. Im trying to take a break from some socials. Its very hard. I want to leave here. But again, this is the only place ive ever expressed my negative feelings. Even if it makes them worse in the long run, I do feel better when I ramble here. Because for it being a small site, someone will read it. even if they make fun of me, someone will read it Even if people dont believe me, I know im struggling. I dont enioy it, I dont know why I would. I want to apologize to everyone. Im so stuck in my head. I want others to be happy as well. I dont want people to suffer or be upset. I want everyone happy and no one to be mean. Ive been mentally and physically sick since of recently. Ive been needing to throw up.